STORY TIME:

Here I stand almost 10 years into my unfolding, 10 toes down deep into everything I’ve asked for.  It’s all manifesting NOW right NOW.  But….how come I don’t feel anything.  I don’t feel overjoyed, I don’t feel excited, I don’t …I don’t feel.

I have been telling myself I’ve learned to control my emotions rather than have my emotions control me.  In actuality, there are no emotions to control.  I have fully detached myself from feeling.  So now I sit in the here and the now and scan my body and cry.  All those tears are just sitting inside of me, with no release, no recognition, like they aren’t important like the feelings connected to them don’t deserve their own space and moment.  Although I know their sources, today I don’t revisit the source.  Today I hold space for the feelings that were suppressed.  The feelings that were…