I was 25, unmarried and joyously pregnant. I carried my love child to term and went into labor on November 15, 1997. Aniyas dad lived in Pennsylvania and I lived in Virginia, 4 hr drive.
Aniyas dad is notorious for oversleeping and had to pull over for a nap and missed her birth but he came in right after.....after the c~section. You see, Aniya got stuck in my pelvis and her heart rate was rapidly declining. I remember the Dr. Coming in to break the news that I would need a c~section. I immediately responded "I DONT CARE!", I had heard them say her heart rate was decreasing so I really didn't care about how they got her out, JUST SAVE MY BABY!
and they did. I gave birth to Aniya Jade Gemmill.
For the next 18.5 years it was Shennan, Aniya and Tyler. We are a trio, we go together....then Aniya transitioned. The Fuck????!!!!!
My daughter passed away in front of me, in a hospital, with a Dr on top of her giving cpr, with blood in her eyes and ears with me and her dad yelling her name with my father trying to pull me away from her......see, the doctors at wake forest Baptist medical center overdosed my daughter on fentanyl and she had a heart attack at their hands. I was there, I saw her transition.
That was on April 24. Then they hooked her up to machines and gave her a fake pulse and fake heartbeat...but she wasn't there. Her real friends came and sang over her and prayed over her. My real friends stayed and prayed.
The doctors told me her brain was dead ...the most beautiful part of her besides her heart.
She would not recover. My sister stayed in there while they took the machines off. That was April 25.
Every April since then, I light a pink candle for everyday she was in the hospital; April 17-April 25. But not this year. ....
This year, my home situation has shifted and is in a transitional period, and owners of the space I am in have requested that I burn no candles. This cuts me deep and hurts BUT I will burn in a sacred and secret location ~ and am so grateful for any and all who are joining me in honoring my Aniya Jade. Year 7, light a pink candle to honor the love and life of Aniya Jade
💕Angel Mom
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